my layers

Why is it so hard
To accept what is real
As opposed to what isn't
Why can't we accept what is from what isn't

Like an onion
I am peeling away my layers
My layers of consciousness
To reach my subconscious level
In order to rewire my unconsciousness

I am doing this for me
Me, the onion that needs the peeling
Because just slicing through them
Will not get me to the root problem

So I peal
Because slicing just runs through them
But I have to rise beyond their flaws
And never look back at them again

Until I am at the core shell
Only than will I be able to see
The bigger picture of my reality
The life I have let create with my mind.

Why is it hard
To grasp that casp of reality
And build a better future
Out of the present that I live

For every second is the gift
Thoughts just our guide stones
To our future today
So I choose to see their beauty daily

For as I peel down the layers
Each step brings me closer to my dreams
But first I have to take it
Or I will always be stuck in this rut

This rut that I have let my life turn to
Is easier turned around than I could ever try
I just have to stop trying
Because I accomplish more by just doing

So I don't take an oath
Because like promises
They can always be Brocken
And I don't want to live like that anymore.

Than I guess I know
I know what I have to do
Question is will I do it
Will I have the courage

For without the courage
How can I strive to change
When I can't even take the first step
That will propel me to my dreams

So I set a goal
No more resolutions
Except if I resolute for change
Even though it will turn into a mountain I will have to climb

But I will not be afraid to climb
Unless I still want to be stuck in this rut
For in this rut I find myself
Even though I know its all in the mind

So in the mind I shall start
Until I am strong enough
Strong enough to take those steps
Because I cannot live without a future.

Even though it is not promised
I promise to cherish every second that I can see it
Thats why I will take it a step at a time
Until I fell I am moving them both at the same time

For I will be propelling to my destiny
One thought at a time
One step at a time
One event at a time

My life is in my hands
And I will no longer hand anyone the key
When they are not the driving force of my life
I am, and I am steering myself there

There, that place that you wish not to see me at
But I will make it
For your negativity is my motivation
I will succeed

I will succeed
Only if I put my mind to it
Because thats all there is to it
A thought in your head

#Peace